REPENTANCE
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Repentance
is a exceedingly beautiful and good daughter of the Lord Most High. And she herself entreats the Most High at all times for all
that repent in the name of the Lord, for He is the Father of repentance.
These words, the Lord our Savior spoke to Aseneth,
the daughter of Pentephres, the wife of Joseph, the son of Jacob, who is the
first born of the Lord Most High. Joseph
received to himself she whom the Lord renamed to "City of refuge".
And it was
"repentance which the Lord set as the "doorway" to come unto Him
and unto His beloved Son, the Messiah whereby He would grant forgiveness in the
offering of His Son on the cross.
Salvation therefore is not automatic, just because we
may be saved in the blood of Christ, does not mean we will be.
There are conditions, we must believe, yes, but believing alone is not
the full faith, since there must also be "repentance".
Repentance then is very dear to God, for she is
humble and meek, and gentle, she is a pure virgin, and always joyful and God
loves her, and the angels of the Lord stand in awe of her.
She is a sister to the Lord who gave His life for
those who had no life, but who fled under His wings by repentance.
He who comes to believe must foremost realize that he has sinned that he
has defiled the Name of God, that with his evil doing he has done great
injustice to God.
And so I have taken up my word to give you to
understand the mysteries of the Lord, and the mysteries of salvation.
For who are they that say, "I believe," but have not seen a
heart of tears?
And who are they that confess to believe in Christ
Jesus as the only begotten Son of God, and have yet to learn
"repentance?"
Among the multitude that perishes there are those,
which say. "We went to church
faithfully, and we helped the poor, and we sang His songs, and we prayed, and
did no great evil things, nor committed murder, and yet we are not saved, since
we did not know Aseneth, the "city of refuge".
Hear then
unto me all you who have an ear to hear.
You have heard of repentance, and of repentance, but unless you flee unto
the right city, the true city of refuge, you will not he within the walls from
where the Lord hears the prayers of the people.
For they who dig their coverts outside of her walls,
in the open plain, or in another city, their voices will not be heard.
For repentance is a "virgin", and she is "one" with
God and single in Him.
Do not think to fool the sons of God saying; that you
believe, while you have yet to enter the city of refuge.
Will an un-educated person instruct a nuclear physicist concerning atoms?
As they, which have not seen the city of refuge, teach him who has been
through it, and who drank of its springs?
Will you think to fool me with words you children of
the churches? Or do you think you
could persuade me with the looks of your faces, or the meekness, which you have
sown upon them? Your face alone
deceives you, and your first word gives you away.
I know the looks of the city, who she is, the
daughter of repentance. But you
have dug your wells elsewhere and brought forth false water, and with that you
think to have life.
How then is it that you say to have life, when the honey is missing?
And thus the Lord put it simply: "That
the sheep
know the voice of the shepherd, and they will follow no other".
What is first, and what is second, faith, or repentance?
My answer would be for repentance to be first and faith simultaneous with
it.
If you say; "I will believe, but I know not what
to repent of, for I am not aware of any great sin, and the little things I have
in my past, the Lord will surely forgive me these, so I am in good shape".
And so, all goes well until at the end of that road
you arrive at the gates, and the gatekeeper informs you that the place for which
you are looking is at the end of another road.
And now what? You
will wish to return to find that turn-off, but you cannot.
For once there, the gatekeeper will inform you, that these roads are only
one-way streets, and that now that you have come here, you are passed the point
of no return. "Now you are
ours, so you will be told, since you have come at the end of the road.
Let me now repeat once what it was the person said
who started out on that road. He
said; that he was not aware of any great sin, but that he would believe if only
to live.
For seeing that at this point in time he "will
believe," it means that there was a time, like even yesterday, that he did
not have the faith.
He said that from this day on he would have faith, he
would accept Jesus. But what good
is it to say he will cross the great ravine when he has not laid any bridge over
which he might cross?
And now another thing. I hear some persons say: I accept, or I have accepted Christ
as my personal Savior. O you
hypocrites, you dim-sighted creatures, when will you open your eyes to see that
you have been bitten by a serpent, and that his venom has taken hold in you?
For these words are
typical of the sons of the devil,
of that venomous vipers brood. Since
when shall Christ have become anyone's "personal" Savior?
He died for the "whole" world.
And if in your ignorance you will answer me, that you
mean to say; "I have personally accepted Christ," I will still not
forgive you your ignorance.
This word "personal" has the smell of no love for one's neighbor, it strives against the commandment that deals with love and humility. You might just as well say; "I am Christ's but without love." so at least you will be speaking a partial truth, the last part.
Wake-up therefore, for if "indeed" you have
accepted Christ, then you have accepted Him, and the word personal, or
personally, has no place in the vocabulary thereof. For the instant that you add that to it, it reveals the venom
of the serpent having you in "his" power.
The tree is known by its fruit.
If therefore you produce thorns, while you claim them to be apples?
You won't fool me, and much less the Holy Spirit of the Lord.
O how
dim-sighted, how blind these are, heading
themselves for the fires of hell, while they know it not.
First of all, how can a church be either open or closed?
For what are you talking about? Do
you even know what a church is?
For in your blindness you are talking about some
stone structure, as if that were a church.
You are the church, every person that knows and understands the Lord;
these and these only are the church.
And you spoke of a door, and so what do you wish, to
cut a door in someone's stomach, with hinges?
In the first place the door to the church is in heaven, not on this
earth.
You think I am speaking foolishly?
No not I am, but you are with your nonsense about anyone remotely being
able to open or close a door to the church, for that is stupidity.
And what do you mean by; "We should not judge
one another?" The Lord said:
"Do not judge, that you be not judged." But you are judging, for you are justifying the
wicked
deeds of men, by remarking upon them in silence.
For the Lord said again:
"But make a righteous
judgment, for whosoever judges righteously, shall not be judged, and no one
judges him."
It is impossible not to judge.
For be it in word or in silence, whatsoever thing you reject or consent
unto, is a judgment in itself, for however you look upon things is judgment in
itself.
And again: When the tree is bad, there is no good in
him, all that he does, and what he thinks, and what he speaks, or does not
speak, by all these he judges himself the judgment.
And how does one come to speak such lies in the
presence of the Almighty Lord who looks upon the earth, to say: "For all
people are basically good?"
Do you think more of the understanding of a young woman, who is no
more than flesh, as compared to the indescribable and endless wisdom and
understanding of the very Creator of man?
For He knows and understands the hearts of everyone,
and this is what He said of the hearts of men; . . . "The heart is
deceitful, and desperately corrupt."
Not
just corrupt, but desperately to that end.
And what do you mean by: "Given a chance, they
will love the church?" Who in
the whole wide world that ever sought to enter the Church of God was denied that
chance?
You cannot name one single name, but I can name many
who while their flesh was being roasted at the stakes, they would not renounce
themselves as being the very church. Nor
would those whose limbs were torn from them pass up the chance of entering in by
the door of the church.
The only ones to close the doors to the church, the
real and true church, are your ministers, and your priests, and your so called
rabbi's, for since they have no chance of entering the church, they labor very
hard at keeping it closed for everyone else.
And why shall it be that unto these the chance of
entering the church is denied, to have no chance at all?
It is because; they set "themselves" up as servants of God.
Anyone who sets himself up in the seat of God, is throw down faster than
the lightning in the sky.
You then who follow these sons of destruction,
feeding them, and honoring them, and listening to their deceptions, unto you the
words apply where the prophet said:
"Cursed is the man that trusts in a man, and makes flesh his arm, whose heart turns away from the Lord. He is like a scrub in the desert to whom no good comes. He shall dwell in the parched places of the wilderness, in an uninhabited wilderness".
We know that the end is near, not only by Israel
being back as a nation, unto which a measure of seventy weeks of times are
affixed, but also by the fact that; the Gentiles are seen to be worshipping a
piece of wood.
For what do you suppose this might mean, to say;
"a piece of wood?"
Do you
think it shall be a wooden statute of Christ or of Mary, which they kiss?
No, not that.
They have exchanged Christ for the tree itself.
And how deceived can one get to give himself to such ignorance, or who
would even be so dim-sighted?
Gentiles have come to worship the church,
they have
become denominational, which therefore has become their fate unto hell.
They have become universal, or catholic as it is also called, but the
church is not universal.
They conceive that
the church will endow them as
Christians, and that going to church will show them as good people.
Their god therefore is the church; the church is their idol, for which
reason it was prophesied that these would come to worship a piece of wood.
And so you have become idol worshipers, and devils
advocate. You run in vain, the
broad road is clear before you, and you travel it well. There is no pain in your heart, and all is well with what
goes well.
But like I said to you, wait till you get at the end
of that road, when you learn that suddenly there is no return.
For once you depart from your body, there is no return.
If therefore you will take my advice, turn back now,
before you pass the point of no return. It
may cause you great hardship to turn around on that one-way street, with all the
multitude against which you have to strive to return, and there is bound to be
collisions.
What is it that the Lord said: Trample My courts and
be saved? Or did He ever say:
Faith, faith, and you shall be well? No,
but hear what the Lord said by Jeremiah:
"Do not trust these deceptive words saying; This is the church, the church, even the church of the Lord. But if you will amend your ways, and your doings, if you truly cut off from you your sins, then He who is faithful will come to you,"
How can you say: "I have accepted Christ in my
heart, and I am reborn?" You
do not understand your speech. For
tell me you who are so wise: When you go to your neighbors house, and knock on
his door, and your neighbor opens the door to you, will you say to him;
"Listen Mr. Neighbor I have accepted you in my house!
Your neighbor will look at you as if you have lost
your mind. For how can you say, you have accepted him in your house, when you
are standing at his doorstep, and knocking at his door?
Don't you think you are quite making a fool of yourself with such words?
"I will open to them that knock at my door.
And whosoever seeks Me in truth, him I will accept, and to Him will I
open." These are the words spoken of the Lord.
You therefore may profess to be accepting Christ, but
the question remains, whether Christ will accept you.
For not you shall accept Him as were you doing Him a favor, but He will
accept you, if at all you are among
the acceptable
Those then who truly turn from their ways unto the
ways of the Lord, these will be among the acceptable, since these have fulfilled
the condition by which salvation is offered.
Many people do many things, and not everyone has
knowledge, and there are the strong, and there are the weak.
But if anyone seeks knowledge let him consider what I say.
He who will not drink wine because he says it is not
according to the faith in Christ, as if it were forbidden, or not desired by
God, that person speaks lies, and has not understood where it says.
"Not what enters the mouth, but what proceeds from it, is what
defiles a man."
And whosoever eats fish on Friday’s or who will eat
no meat of any kind on any day, thinking to thereby perform some service to God,
or that this is commanded, or desired in any way of Christ Jesus,
that person has much to learn.
The food he is eating
may be food of strangulation,
and the drink he drinks may be a cup of insidiousness. For the Lord gave all foods on earth to be taken with
thanksgiving, the only thing that He commanded that man shall not eat nor drink
is the blood, be it of man, or of beast.
If a man does not wish to eat meats for his own
constitution, well-on that is his business, but let him not become a strangler
to say, that such was commanded of God, since that is a lie, and liars are
stranglers.
If then a man says to you; "This food is offered to my idol, and you eat it, you are in the wrong since then you are breaking the law of love by offending your neighbor, and partaking of idol worship.
ASENETH
Allow
me to speak a while on Aseneth, the wife of Joseph, who from his fathers house
was sent to the Gentiles as a savior to them.
Aseneth became to be called "City of refuge", for the
"repentance" which she showed.
This
city of refuge is founded upon seven pillars,
which are all virgins. And in the
token as she was - Aseneth was waited upon by seven maid-servants, seven
virgins.
Aseneth was the daughter of a priest of the
Egyptians, living with her parents like a queen, and she was very beautiful.
Her father had constructed for her a house like a tower with additional
rooms for all her servants.
And having heard of Joseph, she would not believe the
truth, but gave herself to believe the false rumors that he had defiled his
master's wife, and that because of a dream Pharaoh had made him second in charge
in all Egypt.
It then happen one day as Joseph was touring Egypt to
oversee the gathering of the grain, that he came to Heliopolis and the gates of
the house of Penthepres, the father of Aseneth.
Penthepres then rejoiced greatly in that Joseph had
thought him worthy to come to his house to refresh himself.
And he called his daughter telling her the news, that the illustrious
Joseph had sent his messenger to ask of him if he might come in their house to
be refreshed, and that he would be pleased to give her to Joseph for wife.
But Aseneth on hearing this became enraged and spoke
evil words, and went up to her room. But
when Joseph arrived, and she beheld him on his chariot, and his great beauty,
she was cut to the heart, and said:
"I said that a shepherds son was coming, but now how stupid I am to have believed those false rumors, for behold, the sun from heaven has arrived on his chariot, and I have despised him. And now what will I do?
Then, when a table was brought, and Joseph sat down
to eat (for he would not eat with Egyptians), he looking up saw Aseneth standing
in a window, and he said. "Let
this woman depart from this house".
This he said because all the women of Egypt as soon
as they saw him, desired him, for Joseph was very handsome, and the women would
molest him with their adulterous desires, and sent servants with gold and silver
which Joseph sent back with insults.
So rather than being molested, he said; “Let her
depart". But her father said:
“She is not a strange woman, but our daughter and she hates every man, and is
a virgin as you are, you and her therefore are like brother and sister.”
At this then Joseph rejoiced, considering that he
would have nothing to fear from her. Her
mother then brought her before Joseph, and her father said: "Go up and kiss
your brother". But as she
leaned over to kiss him, Joseph stopped her saying:
"It is not fitting for a man who with his mouth
praises God, and eats pure bread and drinks the cup of immortality, that he
should therewith kiss a woman who with her mouth blesses idols and eats bread of
strangulation, and who drinks from a cup of insidiousness.
Nor is it fitting that a woman who worships God should kiss a strange
man, because this is an abomination before God."
This time however, Aseneth at hearing these words did
not become enraged, but was exceedingly wounded to the heart, and her soul cried
bitterly, and her tears wet her face.
Aseneth then rejoiced at these words and went to her
room and wept bitterly. And
repented of her idolatry grinding the gods to powder, throwing them out the
window.
And now to recapture some things.
When Joseph reproved her, she did not as before, become enraged, she did
not say; "yes but that is your word".
Nor, "But who are you to say what is right".
Nor did she harden her heart, nor did she fight against the will and the
Spirit of the Lord.
Instead, she was cut to the heart, she found remorse,
and she realized her wrong. And she
went forth and with the deed repented of her wrong,
not as if thereby she might
gain Joseph, or secure forgiveness, but rather because, she wished not to be
stupid any longer, and no longer commit idolatry, but to do what is right.
She thus mourning said: What am I to do with myself?
For I have become an orphan, and everyone hates me, even my father and
mother hate me, saying; "Aseneth is not our daughter."
For now I will tell you what is not written in the
record. The man Penthepres was a
noble person, and Joseph had judged him right to come under his roof even though
he was a priest of idols.
And Aseneth, at first being enraged when her
father spoke
with her, afterwards going to her room locked herself in, and Joseph mean-while
having left to attend to his duties, with the promise to Penthepres that he
would return on the eight day.
Penthepres and his family then having planned to go to
their field to gather the fruit, since it was that time, Penthepres had sent for
his daughter to go along. For this
was a celebrated outing, to gather the fruits.
For there had been quite a commotion outside of his
house, idols of all sort had been throw out the window, gold silver, and
everything. Thus the thieves had a
field day; it does not take long to gather a crowd in that way.
But no one was able to get to, or to talk to Aseneth,
not even for her father would she open the door.
It was thus that her father came to disavow her by saying; "Aseneth
is not our" daughter". It
was therefore that Aseneth said: "I am an orphan, and everyone hates
me".
And so the days and nights passed while she pined
away in her grief and the shame she felt upon her. And though she knew of God, the God of Joseph, the one God,
she was too ashamed to lift her face unto him, or even to dare speak His name.
For she had heard that the God of the Hebrews is God
- and forgiving sins, but also that He hates all who worshipped idols.
And her mouth being defiled from her idol worship, even as Joseph had
pointed out to her, how was she to dare to take His name upon her lips.
But at end she finally took courage to invoke His
name, saying: "If in fury He strikes me, He will l again heal me, and if He
whips me, He will again have mercy on me".
Thus we see how faith is simultaneous with remorse
and repentance. For the heart goes
to and fro, two spirits combat to take possession. The one says, there is no hope I am defiled, while the other
says, but God is merciful, and it may be that He will forgive my sins.
A struggle takes place within the heart and the mind,
a struggle to acquire an unwavering trust upon the goodness and promise of the
Lord. Yet meanwhile she recalls all
her evil deeds, and they make her sick to her stomach.
She would vomit them out, if only it was as simple as
to vomit them out. But like a
whore, who even though she washes herself a thousand times remains defiled, so
the evil once done cannot be scraped off, but only forgiven by the Lord of
mercies.
Aseneth then at last takes up to speak to the Lord.
And the words which she spoke, are not the kind of words that could have
come from her, that she should have such knowledge beyond normal understanding.
But obviously the Spirit of the Lord, the Spirit of
Repentance was in her granting her the words to speak words that ascended up to
the throne of God. For did not the
Lord also say; "And I will send you the Counselor?"
This Counselor then is the Holy Spirit, as also the
Spirit of repentance, which was also active in Adam and Eve in their repentance
from the thing they had done.
And He comforted Aseneth, and gave her to eat of a
comb of honey, which mysteriously had appeared upon her table, the honey that is
the word of God, by which she was made whole.
So
thus comes repentance before salvation.
For whosoever does not repent of his evil works, for him there is no
forgiving, and without forgiving, no salvation.
No one comes to the Father but by the Son.
And no one can come unto the Son by bypassing the Spirit of Him.
And as the Son is the door to the Father, so repentance, or as I may say,
Aseneth, is the door to the Son.
Without remorse then, how will there be repentance?
I then shall end this chapter saying: "Not they who say; Lord, Lord, but that do My will". And, "These honor Me with the lips, but their heart is far from Me."